Trek Women
October 14, 2007

The numbers add up...

Laura_in_germany When people find out that I've lost over 100 pounds, they usually say something like "oh, you must be so proud." And, though I absolutely 100% appreciate the compliment, internally I must confess that I'm not proud of losing the weight, the same as I'm not proud that I gained it in the first place. Taking off pounds was the easy part for me. It's math afterall... eat better + exercise more = weight loss. I'm not a numbers gal and I figured out that equation. What's calculus to me is adding in the emotional factor –- and that, my friends, is chaos theory.

This past January, Russ asked me a tough question. I'd been on a plateau with the scale for a few months, just 5 or so pounds away from my target. I was practically there. But, he asked me if I was afraid of reaching my goal weight. Wow, I chewed on that for a while. I told him that I wasn’t afraid of hitting some arbitrary number. Rather, I was terrified of NOT achieving the goal that I had set for myself. The number on the scale was only one small quantifiable accomplishment in my greater scheme of things. 

Ask me what I’m proud of and I’ll tell you. It wasn’t some logical or even magical solution for weight loss, it was finding the courage within to become the person I had always imagined myself to be. No math required.

Comments

Laura, it's true -- half of the struggle in any challenge is letting yourself believe you can actually achieve your goals! I'm glad you did and I'm glad you were brave enough to share it with us!

Posted by: Ginger | Oct 15, 2007 7:22:17 AM

I totally admire you! I love to cycle and I've lost over 20 pound doing training, eating better, being more physically active. I'm at my last ten pounds to reach my goal!

Posted by: Leigh | Oct 15, 2007 8:16:55 AM

Laura,

You are so right! It's easier to believe in your own failures, than your own successes. Congratulations on sticking to it, and thank you for sharing such a wonderful blog.

Posted by: Rhonda Budge | Oct 15, 2007 10:43:31 AM

Nice GB!

Posted by: eminySevy | Jul 11, 2009 4:15:59 AM

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