Trek Women
January 9, 2009

Resolve ain’t just for cleaning carpets…

I did something last night that I didn’t want to do; but knew I had to. I went back to Weight Watchers. As single-minded as I am in every other aspect of my life – I can’t control my weight on my own. I failed (and failed and failed…) and I got fat again. And I can’t stand it. So my choice is either keep doing what I have been doing and gain every last pound back that I had fought to lose in the first place and feel even worse than I do already OR go back to WW.

 

All day yesterday, I felt sick to my stomach. I didn’t want to step on the scale. I didn’t want to see anyone I knew from before. I didn’t want to be that statistic of the person who doesn’t keep her weight off after a year. But I did and I am. During the meeting, I was on the verge of tears – sad and well, not quite happy, but tears of determination. I wasn’t alone in that room. Truth be told, there were 5 other women there who were picking themselves up again too. Today, I feel different, like I can do this again, like I can commit to it. I am resolved.

Comments

Hang in there Laura. Remember it is one pound at a time. I so relate as I got on the scale after the holidays and realized that I had just gained back the last 10 pounds of the 60 that I had lost, so I know what you're going through. One day at a time, and one pound at a time.

Posted by: Rhonda | Jan 12, 2009 8:55:50 AM

You're so right! We're both gonna do it!!!

Posted by: Laura Maclean | Jan 12, 2009 8:56:51 AM

Laura - you are a woman of great determination, courage, and beauty. You go get the life you want and don't forget to pack your red shoes.

Posted by: Sally M | Jan 13, 2009 8:50:52 AM

Hahaha, thank you Sally!!! You know how much I love those shoes!

Posted by: Laura Maclean | Jan 13, 2009 8:54:28 AM

I stumbled upon your blog and have been captivated by your story.

We share many similarities. We are close to the same age and I also enjoy biking - both outside road riding and inside spin classes. And, like you, I have lost a significant amount of weight (well over 100 pounds) through a lifestyle change. As such, many of the experiences you have written about really hit home with me.

After reading about your recent return to weight watchers, I felt compelled to write. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my weight and I am constantly concerned about keeping it under control. There are times when it seems maintaining a healthy weight is more difficult than losing the weight in the first place.

Your story is inspirational, and your journey has demonstrated a core strength and determination that few can match. Everything you have done so far proves you are capable of overcoming your current "setback". Don't lose faith in yourself. I know your success story will continue and I look forward to future chapters as you share them.

Posted by: J L C | Jan 20, 2009 9:53:51 PM

Thank you JLC for taking the time to write and and sharing your story with me. Congratulations on your weight loss and your commitment to maintaining it!

I needed your reminder that it is and should be about "lifestyle change." I forget that part and get wrapped up in the scale. It's not easy, and often, darn-right inconvenient to live this lifestyle. But, so worth it to feel good and healthy and strong.

Cheers, Laura


Posted by: Laura Maclean | Jan 21, 2009 10:44:23 AM

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