I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED

As I sat up until 4:30AM last night that is the phrase I repeated to myself over and over.  "I'm so addicted."

I gave up caffeine about 8 years ago.  The reason being I love everything and I tend to have a rather addictive personality and I thought something needed to give something up...so I gave up caffeine. 

When I decided to give up caffeine I was completely hooked.  I was living in Berkeley, CA and my mornings always started with an extra strong pot of Peet's coffee just for me.  after getting totallt jacked up on caffeine I would hit a coffee shop for a mocha with an extra shot of espresso.   If I happened to be a coffee shop in the afternoon, I would stop for aanother mocha.  It finally got to the point that whenever I passed a coffee shop I stopped for a coffee.  So I stopped.

Over the past several years I would have a decaf mocha here and there until recently I started craving the buzz.  I began ordering half caffeine drinks and I like it...a lot.  About 2 months ago I started getting full caffeine and it has been going downhill ever since.  I can't stop and I can't say no.  Oh god, what would Nancy Reagan think of me? 

Any time Seamus sees a Starbuck's sign he says, "I want my cafe mocha"  That is bad.

Yesterday I had a fully loaded coffee in the morning, one in the afternoon AND one at 8:00PM.  I was out getting a pedicure with a friend and she merely suggested stopping for a coffee in the evening.  She was going either way so how could I say no.  Clearly I couldn't. 

I drove with her to thr coffee shop and sucked down my coffee in 5 minutes flat (I'm a very fast coffee drinker) and I loved every second of it...but I surely wasn't loving it when I layed in my bed all night trying to sleep while listening to the Loveman snore a symphony.  I may need some serious help. 

Posted by Susan on October 6, 2008 in Babes on Bikes , Stories from the Saddle , Training Terrors , Woman on the Rag | Permalink | Comments (2)

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